Feeling sh!tty for I had eaten myself a whole cow i.e. 5 donuts in one sitting. Had sugar rush for 15 minutes and then extreme tiredness for the next 1 hour. What and why the hell do I do this to myself? It is extremely self-daunting and not understandable by other species except a sudden office romp would be highly stimulating. (The things I have in my head is not picturesque but an array of words that just flows with a sudden death expression across the face – I kid you not).
I really feel awful that the only purpose I am with the job is because I need the money but with absolutely no motivation to do anything with the job because the instructions are so loose and becomes meaningless and therefore every other thing seems to be meaningless as well. Awful. Pffft.
Note to Self: How the hell are you going to get yourself home in this kind of tiredness knowing that this is not something random that you do onto you like almost all the time? Good grief you are not an alcoholic!