50th day of 2016

I feel compelled to write each day to get my systems out getting ‘need-to-do’ vibes for myself of late.  But it has always been that way.  Ms Buns often told me that my emotional bucket is at a limited size. Such bucket.  Because each time I vomit out to her and wonders why, she goes, “Tsk tsk tsk, you still haven’t realized, after all these years, that you have a small bucket, do you?”  Then we fall into laughter together.

Been blogging since 2004 in randomness.  But I finally understood this need of having so many of blogs when I discovered that I was in INFJ in Dec 2015.  Each caters to my sub-feelings that I needed at that exact time.  There goes again with my bucket being full.

So still standing, I have 9 blogs.  My writings are scattered everywhere.  But to note that the highest post visit achieved was my review for wax strip – of all the things.  My rambles remain as rambles.  Haha.

Today is Friday the 19th.  It is the 50th day of 2016.

I have achieved so far in this year:

  1. Going extremely sad with ugly cries.
  2. Opening another dimension of my relationship with my other half in our communication.
  3. Submitted myself to sending and/or fetching the kids to/from school whenever I can.
  4. Find focus at work – the energy here puts me off balance somehow ever since I joined the team.
  5. Get over lazy at work – after having put off focus in trying to figure out WTH is wrong with the team.
  6. Being kind.
  7. Being resentful.
  8. Being difficult.
  9. Being complex – I get to this every day anyhow.
  10. Made difficult food preparation become easy.
  11. Trail hiking in 2 places – that both broke my spirit and 1 made me cry just to finish the leg (and embarrassed my other half).
  12. I took care of myself.

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Humble spirit.  Just emotionally messed up for herself.  But can easily solve other people’s problem, just not for herself.

Next on the list: A local trip for the family.  One that will induce better communication for the family and moderately physical for me. Oh, and a couple’s trip.  And to be in a bed of flowers (that can be a hard thing to get here), but we’ll see.

Note to Self: Coffee is good.  It also helps to stimulate bowel movement for me.  So please do this complex physical emotional calculation before making one for yourself this morning. But I think you’re going to make one for yourself one despite having gone to the toilet twice already, because you’re one sleepy woman (and for the sake of other people here).

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Author: momsthetruth

Struggling INFJ living in broad daylight and pretends she sleeps through the day like a vampire but knows nothing about Twilight, aside of that hairy beast thing that changes when the girl he can't have does something that can get herself killed.

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