Amazement

Some people don’t cease to amaze me. Their whatevers. With much persistence and tenancy.

But they annoy me much.

So much that I just cannot tell you what’s going on.

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Touching Base

Base.

Ace of Base. Base of myself. Touching the base of myself. Touching self.

Can’t keep my hands to myself.

I mean I could but why would I want to.

#BreatheWildFire #ItIsThursday #PunchMyself #HungerPangs #NoIdea

I’ve attempted a few times writing entry from the last until now.  Okay, I lied.  Only one.

In my new office. Enjoying it now, since many boxes has been sorted.  Although I felt like (actually, I always feel) downloading some common sense into people as we share space with other people.  We interrelated and connect.  So, be nice and don’t expect that you have the right to own the whole entire space to yourself.

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Right now, I am going to go through my old documents and looking forward to shredding some stuffs.

But then again, I’d need to run into other blocks to pick up and send off some documents (which I DON’T WANNA do).

I hope I can do it.  But I hope I don’t have to.

I just need some umph to begin.  Whatever it may be.

 

Party Pieces

Life has basically allowed to dampen itself on itself.  I’m slowly allowing myself to remember that visual sketch from the forever passed on joke about how the Italian farmer can tell the time by weighing the balls of his donkey.  The joke is funnier.

And I know I need water.  Bloatness from all the banana and tapioca crisps that I keep shoving into my mouth for no reason at all.

And I need the bed.  Some tenderness would be nice.

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Natural Instinct

I found one of my writing attempts in the PC.  Keeping it here for myself.

Written on: 3 July 2014

The words on her computer blur.  What she writes does not seem to make any sense.  She reads them over and over again.  The same pattern repeats itself on auto-mode.  She knows her brain is not giving its utmost cooperation.  It is not connecting the dots.  She lifts her hands off the board, picks up her mug and makes her way to the pantry.

She looks out window.  It is her favourite spot.  There is a shrub of tree.  But in the tree nestles a bird of family so tiny that they amaze her each time she sees it. 

Jina slips her hair behind her ear as she makes way for hot water.  She needs coffee.  She definitely needs a strong cup of coffee. 

 

Yes, I randomly write.  Written a few scripts before. Attempted a movie script too. And a book that is left sideways and somewhere in between.

Just maybe one day, I can make it happen.  It’s easier to log it on.  But I’m appreciating the blurriness of portraying myself in the web.  As I’ve had stalkers before this in real life where family life was disrupted. And it’s more important for me to share my thoughts and learning to appreciate the expansion of mind and emotion, knowing that I’ve exceeded and accomplished something at another level.  Life means more to me like that.

But perhaps, one day, I will share more.

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I’m just more comfortable with WordPress now.  It’s aligned with my thoughts and internal culture.

Thank you for reading.  I hope I’ve moved something in you.  We all learn something new every day.  We relate and we move on, with or without baggage.

Have a nice day.

 

Changing Gray

Layout change to match what’s inside my being.  And maybe I’m not liking it – that much. It is close of but not close enough.  So right now I’m judging self of that am I so many shades of gray of a person to begin with?  I’m answering that question with a YES.  Or at least he tells me so because sometimes when we talk about ourselves, he tells me I’m a boring person.  YES, I know it.  So NO, I’m not offended.  Because he was being sincere and truthful about it.

So, never mind.  I’ll just leave the layout theme as such for a few days.  We’ll see how it grows on me.  Just so happen the colours match what I wear today.  Grey, shades of browns, beige, peaches and oranges.

Not everything is black and white.  Shades of gray helps to multiply the shades of colour between the two. (<— I have no idea where I’m getting at with this.)

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Note: YES, warfare, in my head, every hour, every day.  Have a great weekend peeps! 

How to Keep Self Sane.

Emotions are well.  I hope nobody tries to botch it up.  But then again, actually, if you really think about it would me allowing anyone for that matter, to offend me and ruin my day.

So I’ve been exposing myself in reddit.  Something new for me (and I feel ancient for lagging behind this expressive site).  At least it’s confirmed that the communication within the working place sucks.  But I will not let things get in my way today, with the measures I’ve taken for my own personal well-being:

  1. Go out of the office complex for morning break, lunch and tea break.
  2. Walk off looking so insight-fully busy by parking self in the pantry, or sit long enough on the toilet when there isn’t anything coming out.
  3. Be in a very seriously needed phone call.  (Hey, it’s about my well-being right?  Of course it is a serious phone conversation needed.)
  4. Make self coffee.
  5. Play songs loudly.
  6. Blog as I please.
  7. Look at prospective holiday places as I need.
  8. Go home and lay on the bed for 20 minutes.
  9. Drive to Starbucks and make self happy.
  10. Or get sushi packs from the supermarket to bring home for the kids.  (Hey, it’s the SHOPPING that makes happy!)

For today, I’ve scraped off:

  1. Go out of the office complex for morning break, lunch and tea break.  >>> Will be on this shortly.
  2. Walk off looking so insight-fully busy by parking self in the pantry, or sit long enough on the toilet when there isn’t anything coming out. <<< Survived the whole ENTIRE WEEK with this!!!
  3. Be in a very seriously needed phone call.  (Hey, it’s about my well-being right?  Of course it is a serious phone conversation needed.)  <<< Survived the whole ENTIRE WEEK with this too!
  4. Make self coffee. >>> Someone took away my mug. So I can’t be making one now.
  5. Play songs loudly. <<< Survived the whole ENTIRE WEEK with this too, again!
  6. Blog as I please. >>> Doing this now.
  7. Look at prospective holiday places as I need.  >>> The next holiday trip is in place. Will be looking at the place to stay in later.
  8. Go home and lay on the bed for 20 minutes. <<< I did this yesterday at lunch.
  9. Drive to Starbucks and make self happy. <<< This was last Friday.
  10. Or get sushi packs from the supermarket to bring home for the kids.  (Hey, it’s the SHOPPING that makes happy!)  <<< So was this, last Friday.

I’m hungry.  My workstation is in a mess as we’re in the midst of changing buildings. And apparently my table has the best clutter.  Haih.  Me and the constant purchase of making things more organised where in the end, you clutter when de-cluttering – and will eventually throw out the things you bought to improve your organisation in the end.  Epic failure.

So I shall ready for this morning break.  Hihi!