There is a difference between feeling lonely and being alone.
There is a difference with seeking attention and giving attention.
There is a difference with emotional support and physical support.
What gives when one provides and receives at minimal ground of the relationship’s understanding? I often feel blundered by this chaos. It’s the brain fog that takes time for you to navigate. Everything seems to be disoriented especially if you navigate best using your emotions.
Stop caring to protect your heart.
Shield self from externalness because of what hurt it may cause.
Because disappointment hurts. Even more so when you are a feeler, a healer and an empath overall without space. Such irony to be all that in this position.
It really reminds me of grumpy men who fought war and left lonely at old age. That’s how they got there. They have so much love to give. But they are also so fearful to hurt from all despair ever again. Make them feel that they matter. It goes beyond minimal effort to build a relationship with them, what more to maintain your other built relationships.
Sometimes the simplest things are the hardest to deliver. Even more to maintain and improve the other things that you have. But you need to try or your garden will die.