I feel so alone.
It feels empty. Can’t cry it. Don’t feel like distracting myself with conversations, people, TV. Games feel useless right now.
Yes, as I am a lonely person, it is hard to feel alone.
I am abandoning myself.
Hurt beyond sad. I don’t know how to repair it anymore. I can’t fall blind or deaf anymore. I can’t wait for time. I don’t know how I will learn to enjoy myself when time comes. My heart is numb.
I am abandoning you.